Last month i was changing diapers. Today i am changing my students' seats. (Haven't touched a diaper in awhile.)
Last month i was reading to jaely in my lap. Today i was reading to 27 sets of eyes.
Last month Jaely was a little tired of me. Today, she squealed with delight and waved to me out of the windowwhen i pulled in the driveway .
Last month i was telling jaely that a tantrum won't help her get her way. Today i was telling an EI student that a tantrum won't help get her way.
Last month i saw jaely by 8 every morning. Today i didn't see her until 4:30.
Last month i changed jaely out of her pee soaked jammies. Today, i sent a child to the nurse to get out of his pee soaked shorts.
Last month Jaely sneezed on my bare leg and i laughed as she laughed. Today a student sneezed on my arm. . . and i went to get the purell.
Last month i craved conversation and interaction. Today, my throat is raw and sore from all the talking.
Last month i often found the quiet too quiet. Today the loud was so loud.
Last month i could say i know my daughter inside and out. Today. . . not so much.
Last month i spent 12 hours a day with jaelynne. Today i saw her for 2 and a half.
Last month i was cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, grocery shopping, and hanging with jaely. Today, i called parents, taught my butt off. planned lessons and corrected papers. (TJ has successfully picked up the slack!)
Last month i was teaching jaely how to put her shirt on. Today i whispered to a student that her shirt was on backwards.
Last month i didn't wear make-up. Today i did.
Last month i didn't make any money. Today i did. :)
Last month i missed seeing my friends at work. Today i ate and laughed with them in the lounge.
Last month i had to tell jaely to be careful when she crawled under the table. Today i had to coax a student from under the table.
Last month, Jaely was my alarm clock. Today i got up at 5:15 to an annoying beeping.
Last month i was reading to jaely in my lap. Today i was reading to 27 sets of eyes.
Last month Jaely was a little tired of me. Today, she squealed with delight and waved to me out of the windowwhen i pulled in the driveway .
Last month i was telling jaely that a tantrum won't help her get her way. Today i was telling an EI student that a tantrum won't help get her way.
Last month i saw jaely by 8 every morning. Today i didn't see her until 4:30.
Last month i changed jaely out of her pee soaked jammies. Today, i sent a child to the nurse to get out of his pee soaked shorts.
Last month Jaely sneezed on my bare leg and i laughed as she laughed. Today a student sneezed on my arm. . . and i went to get the purell.
Last month i craved conversation and interaction. Today, my throat is raw and sore from all the talking.
Last month i often found the quiet too quiet. Today the loud was so loud.
Last month i could say i know my daughter inside and out. Today. . . not so much.
Last month i spent 12 hours a day with jaelynne. Today i saw her for 2 and a half.
Last month i was cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, grocery shopping, and hanging with jaely. Today, i called parents, taught my butt off. planned lessons and corrected papers. (TJ has successfully picked up the slack!)
Last month i was teaching jaely how to put her shirt on. Today i whispered to a student that her shirt was on backwards.
Last month i didn't wear make-up. Today i did.
Last month i didn't make any money. Today i did. :)
Last month i missed seeing my friends at work. Today i ate and laughed with them in the lounge.
Last month i had to tell jaely to be careful when she crawled under the table. Today i had to coax a student from under the table.
Last month, Jaely was my alarm clock. Today i got up at 5:15 to an annoying beeping.
Last month, both TJ and i were enjoying our summer off as teachers. Life is a bit different now. And although we are still trying to figure things out, things are coming together. We were pleasantly surprised by the amount of TJ's pay check. Jaely seems to be liking daycare. She plays outside all the time and loves to be with other kids. I am finally making money. I have been getting most of my work done before school starts. TJ has been doing his at night. He has been taking jaely all kinds of places in the morning. . .the park, farmers market, Target, meijers, and for walks. She has been napping at daycare for an hour and sleeping in for the most part.
I am adjusting. I miss my daughter and feel like i am missing her little changes, but i am relieved to know she is mostly with her papa. I am stressed and tired, but good. Glad i have a job. Thankful for a healthy daughter and husband. It is killing me to miss jaely's 18 month checkup on Monday. I could take a sick day for it, but i am going to need those later.
This is our life. Different, but awesome. Busy, but satisfying. Life is good.
1 comment:
i like your perspective. i love your optimism and positive thoughts. this must have been a tough transition, and it seems you are handling it well.
jaely is lucky to have a mom like you. devoted and passionate.
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