Dreading Night Time

I used to be such a good sleeper. I could sleep for 12 hours non-stop with no problem. Lately, i have been dreading night time. Right now it is 3:30. I have been up since 2:00. My mind is ready to sleep. . . it is turned off, just waiting to be completely asleep. It is my body that won't let me. I am so sick of sleeping with four pillows (two under my head, one between my knees and one under my belly). I am sick of only having two sleeping positions- on my left side or on my right side. I am sick of turning over in bed and having to fling the covers off of me to get the pillows situated after i turn to my other side. I am sick of it taking so much energy to just flip over in bed.

But what i am REALLY tired of is the itching. I think i have four different rashes/skin conditions going on right now. I go to the doctors Tuesday and i was hoping i could make it till then. Ever since camping, i have heat rash under my arms and in my inner thigh. That is the easiest to find relief for. . . cortizone. On the top of my hands i have the itchiest little bumps. . . that have since moved from the tops of my hands to my wrists to my palms and then to the sides of my fingers. I cannot stand itchy palms. Caladryl (sp?) lotion works for a bit, but an ice pack works the best.

I won't go in to the different itching i have on my stomach, my boobs, or my elbows. The bathroom is filled with lotions that bring some relief for some, but don't touch the others.

A couple nights ago i took a Benedryl. I am allowed to during pregnancy, but i try to limit medication i put in my body. That night, i slept so well. I didn't wake up during the night with such intense itchiness. I wasn't conscious of rolling over repeatedly and having to adjust my pillows. The ice packs stayed in the freezer and the couch didn't get my usual middle of the night visit. It was wonderful. But i also didn't hear TJ get up or Jaelynne. I was OUT! I should have taken another one last night. . . it is too late now. I would ruin my whole Saturday by being in a sleepy trance. Although, it looks like i may be anyway. . . going on two hours now.

I should chop all my nails off, then maybe the itching won't be so satisfying as i am doing it but so horrible once i stop.

I don't know when the next night time will be when i sleep soundly. After pregnancy there won't be any relief, but i look forward to a year from now when i don't dread night time, but rather look forward to it.