A year Ago

About a year ago today, TJ was in Houston for school. Gail was in town to help me with Jaely. I had an early morning appointment in Grand Rapids with the fertility specialists. We were trying yet another round of hormones. . . more shots, more appointments, more moodiness. I had an appointment because i had already started my next round of shots. My previous round had ended with me getting my period, which means we weren't pregnant. That round didn't take. When i am on my shots, they monitor my follicles closely for growth. I was going in to the doctors like i had so many times before. It normally is a quick appointment and i can get to school to finish the afternoon. When i went in about a year ago, the nurse did my ultrasound to see how my follicles were looking. She got really quiet and stopped to double check my chart. I saw her reread it. She then asked me how my last round of shots ended. I told her that i had gotten my period. She asked if it was a normal one. She finally said that on my ultrasound she had seen something that looked like a pregnancy. She didn't want me to get my hopes up, but she was sending me to the hospital to get blood drawn stat. She said the "something" wasn't there at my last visit, but there was a chance it was something else.

I got in the car. I really didn't care too much about getting back to school. I called TJ. He downplayed it (his typical response). Then i called gail, who promptly pulled her car over with Jaely in the backseat and they prayed. I got my blood drawn and then went to school. I tried to act normal, but i just had to tell some of my friends that something was spotted in my uterus. I taught and then while my kids were in computers. . . i got the call. My blood work came back positive. POSITIVE! I tried calling TJ, but no answer. I interrupted my friends' classes to sneak in and whisper the good news. I was already 6 weeks pregnant! I knew with Jaely when i was only two weeks. I immediately thought back to what i had drank, taken, and done. All was good! I was worried about all the shots that i had already started, but they told me they won't harm the baby and, in fact could even help me keep the baby.

Camryn had somehow hung on. My period was probably a miscarriage (i had many follicles ready to drop an egg when i got my final shot, which could result in multiples).

I will never forget that day. Never forget when i learned we were going to have our second child. I was so cautious. Because it was such a strange circumstance, i kept waiting for something to go wrong in my pregnancy. . .but it didn't. She remained healthy and strong.

A year ago i learned that God had begun to knit another tiny human being in me. I learned i could be done with those awful hormone shots that make me turn into a witch. I learned Jaely would be a big sister. A year ago, i witnessed a miracle.

Camryn is "talking" very loudly next to me as i type this. Tears flood my eyes. What a miracle. What a blessing. What an unexpected answer to prayer